I see a jumbled mess of ideas and thoughts in your mind. You have tried to deal with this through natural means. You have even consulted those who are non-spiritual in hopes that order may come to your mind. I say to you that I am the one to turn to. I provided My Spirit to guide you and direct you into the paths of My choosing. I am the God of order so turn to Me!
Isaiah 26:3-4 (NASB1995) “The steadfast of mind You will keep in perfect peace, because he trusts in You. Trust in the LORD forever, for in GOD the LORD, we have an everlasting Rock.”